Am I Depressed?!


One of the biggest misconceptions I’ve noticed on the Internet is what people think depression is compared to the actual clinical definition of depression. Depression is so much more than just feeling sad. Many people associate depression with an emotion when it’s way more complicated than that. Depression presents itself in many forms so what may be depression on one person may look different in another person.

The clinical term for depression is major depressive disorder AKA MDD. Many people do not see MDD as an illness but in reality it is not only a common illness but also a serious medical illness. MDD negatively affects the how you feel, the way you think, and how you act. MDD can also affect you physically and that’s the symptom that so many people look over.

Symptoms of MDD can vary from mild to severe and they can also go away for a while then suddenly come back. The most common symptom of MDD is feeling sad or having a depressed mood but as I mentioned already it’s still little more to it.

 Another symptom of depression is loss of interest or pleasure in activities you once enjoyed. So let’s say you enjoy sky diving, that’s your thing & always has been your thing. Then suddenly, you just don’t find pleasure from skydiving anymore. It’s like you still have that little urge to go skydiving but you just can’t get the satisfaction you once got from it anymore. That’s low-key a symptom of MDD.

The next symptom of depression is changes in appetite --- and this is completely unrelated to purposely dieting or using drugs. So for example, some people may start eating a shit ton of food while their depressed while others, like myself, don’t eat at all because they don’t have an appetite.

Hypersomnia and insomnia is also another symptom of depression. Some people sleep a lot when they’re depressed while others may not sleep at all; it really depends on the person. 

Loss of energy or increased fatigue is a major symptom of depression but it can also be difficult to pinpoint the root cause of this because really anything can make you tired. Really, seeing the Kardashians as major news is making me tired as hell honey but anyways…. FATIGUE. Some people with depression may describe their body as really heavy when they experience fatigue during depression. Also, on top of not having interest in doing things you once enjoyed you may not even have the energy to things you enjoyed either. Most people with MDD may also experience physical symptoms like headaches and bodyaches.

MDD also can cause some difficulty in thinking, concentrating, or making decisions also known as cognitive constriction. So it’s like having a huge brain fart that you cannot get rid off and it’s the most frustrating thing ever.

Many people with MDD also experience feelings of worthlessness and guilt. They can’t explain why they feel like the gum on the bottom of a homeless man’s shoe, they just know that they feel that way. They also can’t explain why they feel so bad for calling their teacher a bitch in the 3rd grade but they do know that they feel really bad about it now and can’t get it out of their head.

Lastly, MDD also causes thoughts of death and suicide. Some people may not actually think about killing themselves but they may daydream about dying, which is sad to think about honestly. Someone you know that is struggling with depression is likely thinking about death or suicide, that’s scary, right? Reach out to them. If you’re experiencing thoughts of death or suicide please check out my resource page. 

If you notice you have some of these symptoms please do not self-diagnose yourself, this ain’t webmd! Go see your doctor and get clinically diagnosed instead so you can get the help you need. In order to be clinically diagnosed with MDD you must have had a certain amount of these symptoms for a certain period of time. Some medical conditions can also mimic symptoms of depression so it’s important to rule out other medical causes first. So, that’s why it’s so important to see a professional instead of taking matters into your own hands.

 Although I am a mental health professional my posts are in no way a substitute for diagnosing yourself or a substitute for treatment.  

Now that you know a little bit more about depression what are your thoughts? Is MDD what you thought it was originally? Share your thoughts below.



  1. As someone diagnosed with MDD in 2013 and recently re-diagnosed with PDD, you hit this shit on the head! I think you did an extremely good job of explaining clinical depression in a simple way while still covering SO MANY things that “real” depression entails. I hope this opens some people’s eyes.

    1. Thank you Jillian! I’m glad you enjoyed it. I’m sorry about your diagnoses, I hope you’re engaging in lots of self care. 💕